farewell..

I stare out the window,
watching the rain pouring outside,
what i see don't just seem as plain water droplets,
but as tears shed by the clouds -
knowing our pain of separation....
i think about the days when -
i actually knew what fun was all about,
i think of my SCHOOL DAYS....
the laughs that we shared,
the gags that we pulled,
the troubles that we caused and
the little fights that we had......
it was only then that i realised-
how much pain a word of "GOOD-BYE" can cause....
when i think about all those now,
my heart aches for another chance,
A CHANCE TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL......

TAINTED

i stand alone,
tainted by the rotten world,
stranded and suffering for my past sins,
sins that i endeavour to atone for,
but seethed to find that i am also being accused for-
what was not my fault...
i take a hard dip down the cold stream,
hoping that the icy waters would cleanse my soul -
of all that filth , all that hatered,
that had once consumed it....
despite my efforts to rebound,
i am still kept away,
with no one to reach out to me....

DROWNING..

i am drowning into the vast ocean of my loneliness,
lost in the emtiness of my soul,
desperately seeking for a reason to live,
for a reason to breathe,
i struggle to reach the top,
but i cant breakfree from the chains that hold me down,
i suffer silently from this pain within,
longing to be taken away,
taken away from me ....

WOUNDED

hurt by the cruel world,
i had locked myself up once and threw away the keys..
now that i realise that i cant stay aloof forever,
i try to come out but find myself trapped,
i bang and i yell in vain as my cries are echoed back-
not going beyond the walls...
as i weep in despair,
inside the cold dark prison,
i pray real hard.....
BEGGING for someone to breakdown the doors -
and set me free....

SLEEPING

i refuse to wake from my slumber,
for i am truely happy and entirely free only in my dreams,
i dont intend on going back to the -
excrutiatingly painful reality ,
where i am burdened heavily with -
worthless woes and meaningless obligations,
i ask myself ...
" wouldn't it be better just to lie there still,
not having to worry about anythin at all ?"
but deep down,
i know that the answer isn't always what you wish for....